My life as a writer is kind of a hard journey I’m traveling in like a misguided state of mind. I get kind of lost and stuck at times, I get to that place where I have no idea what will come up next! But as a writer you have no room to think that way… You can’t think about getting stuck and not knowing what to say. So daily I try and write about the goings on in life today, jist letting the words flow,what and how it went or is going on. There is no such thing as not having anything to write about, because things going on everyday is something to write about… IT’S LIFE, LETS TALK ABOUT IT

Getting through


In life, we all have to figure things out sometimes. At work, bills,relationships,even life for some,figure out how they gonna eat,sleep etc… being a parent sometimes we have to figure things out… Yes, with me being a teenage parent is what I called a choice, because it was what my mother gave me while I was still in high school.
I knew about sex, because of course it was so out there!

I was being taught about it in high school, or talking about it with friends even before my mother and her boyfriend,came to me and sat me down and had an adult talk with me for the first time. I remember I was so horrified! I wasn’t having sex then,but I was feeling the urges. No! I was not about to tell my mother “well now since you brought it up, yes… I am ready”. So shy about even having this conversation with my my mother! I feel was my first responsibility of figuring it out! Have this embarrassing conversation with them,or deny it all and be free. First choice I had to figure that out! It was a hard decision, I’ll take B, just lie about you even being interested in sex they’ll leave you alone.

So I had that choice before I put my mom through the embarrassment of having a 15/16 year old high school child having a child, as if she didn’t do her part as a parent! Now being a teenage parent,raising a child as a child myself… there were things I had to figure out myself, my mom was still working, I had to be a mother. I did that, now not only do my mother have to raise another child,keep me in school & work! She had to figure it out!

So now, me being a mother, I see so many things I did to my mother,that my kids do to me and I just laugh to myself & shake my head. I was always taught to be strong for myself, and to be a self dependent woman, and to never expect anything free because nothings free! So I grew my children on that very sternly now today. I install self dependency in them because I was raised on laziness as being a sin.
I taught them how to never depend on some thing always have a back up plan in life because ANYTHING can happen at any given time. I let them know I will always be there but I can’t do it for you.
I can’t always help you sometimes you have to figure it out!

I can hold your hand up to here, now I have to let go” “what now”? “ Well figure it out”! I can’t live your life for you”, What do you want to do?” Sometimes I’m there for them way too much and it makes me feel helpless for them… And I have to step back,and do a self check, a reality check on myself. The American dream not free baby, you have to work hard, and sometimes you don’t even get it then… You make mistakes,call mistakes upon yourself…even after warnings, you pay for those mistakes,and when you need me sometimes,I just can’t help you at that moment, then what? Then you’re stuck… you just will have to figure it out! I will teach you, I will help you, but when you make certain beds, you have to lie in them yourselves.

As hurtful as it may be at that moment, you just have to tell them… figure it out! I gave my children the same things and opportunities my mother gave me, and I still made my own decision. So sometime I use to have to figure things out! But with GOD’S LOVE,THE LOVE OF FAMILY & FRIENDS & THE TOOLS OF LIFE…
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Today I had a very surprisingly shocking situation happen to me. I say shocking because it came without a warning,without me being able to even react! But to have GOD by my side at all times I know I can breakthrough anything. These things don’t just happen… They accumilate over time,catch you in a deep comfort zone, then suddenly like a theif in the night it happens. But never let a situation take you out your realm. That’s what they’re here for, to just give us that push we been needing, that push we pray for but make no efforts to fix ourselves. So when you get a warning, then you keep turning a blind eye, GOD will show you,. He get so tired of you turning your head he just will grab it,make you face it… Make you stare it straight in the face & see it for what it really is.

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Now sad from the fall but still landing on my feet. Realizing it’s not that bad, to have went through this situation,to see things for what it really was the whole time, thank you JESUS for letting me see.moral of my story is that, everything isn’t always what it seems… A sleepwalking journey is what you do when you say you believe in GOD but wanna take ways of the world and twist certain things of GOD’S words to make what you do right.the truth will come out eventually…AND YOU WILL HAVE TO OPEN YOUR EYES.



I really can’t recall things ever being good thinking back,all the way back, but I do know this: We need to know that we are all people. Yes I know some have more than others, but that only make you richer in finances. But who are you really? What purpose do you serve other than you having more than someone? As a woman or man, can anyone say you made a difference to someone other than yourself? Were you a mentor to anyone other than being told to in a line of acting? I mean some people go about the world judging people by their skin color when I really never understood this part seeing we have the same things, eyes,arms ears,legs,lips nose,fingers,toes etc… We look different!

Celebrities,rappers,singers it’s all talent! No reason because another new person come out, you have to beef. It’s called talent! All of you have it, why do you feel you have to make a statement towards another to make your music or scenes better, are you not good unless you bashing someone else?

But aren’t we all humans that only make different choices? Not even twins are alike, their thoughts aren’t even the same, You may get those that are identical and a rare case that they can agree on majority of things.

But I feel we all can do more to make this world better without all the hatred we spread against each other as actual “HUMAN BEINGS”. I never intended on this blog being about anything particular, but I do want to spread more than writing messages. I want to spread the word of being a better people of this world.

We are who & what can make the world what it is by some of the choices we make, we as the people have separated ourselves from love with the bickerings of being selfishness. What are we teaching our children?

With some it was taught and with some it was a choice of their own even when they were taught better. Some people would want to change but by others having certain influences over some, certain people feel scared to make a different decision. Be who you want to be! Do what you want to do! If you keep going in the whirlwind of another you will never find yourself!

I saw how much of an impact Tyler Perry came out and had the biggest influence, I love how he inspired and gave so many opportunities to so many, I heard of how Opera impacted, and My girl Ellen I just love her. But I know that’s not all but just throwing some out there. But we have so many celebrities that failing right now and it’s so sad because these are people that had impacts in people that watches them and for them to have their entire lives in the publics eye… They don’t stand a chance. Some can keep it together so good then you have those that have so much pressure until they explode. Sad,sad,sad… The media do them so harsh that they just have no type of self containment. They have to be on their P’s & Q’s at all times because they live their life for the media to have a job.

We can’t come together as a nation if we can’t come together as people. How do we have a president that makes the news on a daily basis, and the news is rarely good news! What’s going on with America?


The cartoons have been battling from day one, that’s where we as children was first introduced to violence, yes it came from home first! From the cartoons,Tom & Jerry, Tweety & sylvester, The road runner & the coyote I can go on and on all violent! Now we have the little cursing south park kids cartoons. Named all the good cartoons gay and took those off the air, I still try to find cartoons like teletubbies,Barney etc…

How I came to write my first book

First I was just want to say I was diagnosed with a bone disease in 1999 work related then had 3 car accidents that made it all worse,But can’t let that stop life from happening right?So time in and time out I’ve tried working different types of jobs that can finally snuggle with and climb the ladders, yet wheeled out on a stretcher is where I’d end up after a good month in a 1/2, or I end up at the hospital with a release back to full duty… No lifting,bending,stooping sitting etc. Ok now the job like well whenever you get released back to full duty let us know, which be never once my Dr see what all I have really going on. Now I’m between a rock and a hard place seeing I really can’t do any hard labor.

I love working,I was always loved at all my jobs,and I like to work hard. But all this don’t matter when you can’t even do anything about it. Well that wasn’t so true seeing I had a profession under my belt that I hadn’t touched in years. I use to write poetry, but due to it not bringing in any income & I had no idea how to get paid from it even when I found you can get paid, but in 1996 when I was writing I didn’t even care about the money I just loved sending it to and getting the small recognitions,little certificates.I was missing out on so much forcing myself to do all these things I cared nothing about except nursing and that was still out the door.
Long story short, I already had writing under my belt. I had met a guy name Carlos between this time that had started helping me financially and while I was seeking my goals of what I wanted to really do, I knew it was writing but just sitting the the house writing poetry and music it set off a bell that I wanted more.

while doing my poetry I felt the sense to write some music, During this time I’m still searching for ways to get paid,I saw a ad online to submit your poetry and they will make it music, wow! Now I submit my poetry and my songs I wrote and they tell me they liked and can I send one more. So of course I send it to them,now I’m thinking to myself this is unreal,this not true, a week later I get a contract in the mail from majestic records. Now I’m so shocked I had no clue what to do now because they wanted $385. For making the CD’S They had there singers to sing my lyrics and made cds. Now I’m like stuck,they are going to send me 10cds for the $385 I don’t even have $100.00. Now I move on after a while I still have the contract as long as I send the money which I was totally in with if I could have just been able to see how true it was. Of course I had gotten copy writes and all too all my things I put out there. Still haven’t sent the money or got my cds but one day soon.
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Now that was not the end of my career seeking journey because I still felt empty, even doing what I love I still felt like I was missing something,and I was… I asked Carlos to bring me some paint & drawing utensils,He got me the easel all the paint I wanted,the whole art set up & drawing art pencils,everything I needed to be a artist. I told him I wanted to paint and draw now. Without another word, he took me to Michaels arts and craft store to get the items in question, the whole while he said nothing, he was happy to see me doing constructive thing so he must just was wondering where all this was going to lead up to because he never complained. Mow I have my poetry & music, and now about to paint and draw. What I never knew this whole while, is I had no clue these were steps to success for me, well it haven't yet but I do feel it in these broken bones lol. Now the good part of this story was after the poetry & song writing then the drawing & painting. I was still missing the point of it all. I had one more request from carlos, can you but me some more paper and pencils. Now he looking at me and asks, what you mean?

I say now I know, I'm ready to write a book, put my drawings & paintings,poems & songs in it! Now he looks at me and say's wow! You are so multi-talented. I was wondering what all this was leading to, at least it all didn't go to waste. And that's how I got the book "MY LIFE AT A GLANCE"(The good,bad & the ugly) the story of my life…fhtukgw_d1636142005.jpg
This is some of my drawings.

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Some of my poetry is here on my:

Check this out: ’12 Little Known Laws Of Karma That Will Change Your Life’

Karma is the Sanskrit word for action. One can think of karma as the spiritual equivalent of Newton’s Law of Motion. “For every action there is an equal but opposite reaction.” Basically, when we exhibit a negative force in thought, word, or action, that negative energy will come back to us.

1. The Great Law
“As you sow, so shall you reap.” This is also known as the “Law of Cause and Effect.”
If what we want is happiness, peace, love, and friendship, then we should BE happy, peaceful, loving and a true friend.
Whatever we put out in the Universe is what comes back to us.
2. The Law of Creation
Life doesn’t just happen. It requires our participation.
We are one with the Universe, both inside and out.
Whatever surrounds us gives us clues to our inner state.
Be yourself, and surround yourself with what you want to have in your life.
3. The Law of Humility
You can’t change something if you refuse to accept it.
If what we see is an enemy, or someone with a character trait that we find to benegative, then we ourselves are not focused on a higher level of existence.
4. The Law of Growth
“Wherever you go, there you are.”
For us to grow in Spirit, it is we who must change, and not the people, places or things around us.
The only given we have in our lives is ourselves, and that is the only factor we have control over.
When we change who and what we are within our hearts, our lives follow suit and change too.
5. The Law of Responsibility
Whenever there is something wrong in my life, there is something wrong in me.
We mirror what surrounds us, and what surrounds us mirrors us; this is a Universal Truth.
We must take responsibility for what is in our life.
6. The Law of Connection
Even if something we do seems inconsequential, it is very important that it gets done as everything in the Universe is connected.
Each step leads to the next step, and so forth and so on.
Someone must do the initial work to get a job done.
Neither the first step nor the last are of greater significance, as they were both needed to accomplish the task.
Past, Present and Future are all connected.
7. The Law of Focus
You cannot think of two things at the same time.
Because of this, when our focus is on Spiritual Values, it is impossible for us to have lower thoughts such as greed or anger.
8. The Law of Giving and Hospitality
If you believe something to be true, then sometime in your life you will be called upon to demonstrate that particular truth.
Here is where we put what we CLAIM that we have learned into actual PRACTICE.
9. The Law of Here and Now
Looking backward to examine what was or forward to worry about the future prevents us from being totally in the here and now.
Old thoughts, old patterns of behavior, and old dreams prevent us from having new ones.
10. The Law of Change
History repeats itself until we learn the lessons that we need to change our path.
11. The Law of Patience and Reward
All rewards require initial toil.
Rewards of lasting value require patient and persistent toil.
True joy comes from doing what we’re suppose to be doing, and knowing that the reward will come in its own time.
12. The Law of Significance and Inspiration
You get back from something whatever you have put into it.
The true value of something is a direct result of the energy and intent that is put into it.
Every personal contribution is also a contribution to the Whole.
Lackluster contributions have no impact on the Whole, nor do they work to diminish it.
Loving contributions bring life to, and inspire, the Whole.

Amazing Image created by Artists Cameron Gray

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